2 days after amputation

Toller is still doing great πŸ™‚

Her pain meds make her very sleepy, so we have to adjust how long she is out her crate. Usually it’s 20-40 minutes. Our vets seem to be really strict about crate rest after amputation (some places are much more lenient) so for now at least we’re following their advice.

This means Tolly’s still on crate rest at least until her check up on Monday. Eventually she’ll be spending time in the 42 inch crate we’ve set up as her play pen, and the next step is spending more time free in the house. At some point we’ll begin special exercises to strengthen her core muscles, and building her up to walks πŸ™‚

Spud’s gonna be meeting my parents tomorrow. That will be nice for her πŸ™‚

It’s Boo’s birthday in a few days, he’s going to be seven! Unfortunately his main birthday gift won’t arrive until a few days after (we forgot to order it with all the Tolly stuff, ooops!). He’s getting a food dehydrator so we can make all sorts of treats and chews for him, he’ll LOVE that!

We did order some new puzzle feeders which will arrive on his birthday though, so at least he has something.

Kasper’s had less walk as we prepped for Toller’s surgery. Once her amputation was done we got back into the swing of it, and he was SO HAPPY to have his walks!!

He might be seven, but he can still go as far as Sasha, and he SPRINTS everywhere vs her leisurely pace. He has crazy stamina and walking him is always such a joy.

Smiles all round πŸ™‚



And I’m going to do a training post/update for Sasha at some point. For now here are some photos from a very wet walk today!



And whilst we’re talking about wet dogs…check out Miss Sashie splashing through the sea on a hike the other day!!

Picking ourselves back up!

Admittedly we’ve had an AWFUL week (two weeks?) so yes, I broke when we found out Toller’s leg wasn’t as healed as we had hoped for.

BUT, I’m picking myself back up, my partner has been wodnerfully supportive, we have a plan and I think we can make it work πŸ™‚

Things are improving. I’m tired and in physical pain, and mentally still a little fragile, but I haven’t cried today…which is a huge frickin’ achievement hahaha!!

So yes. We’re waiting on the basic Β£70 wheelchair to arrive (2-5th May) and I’m honestly so excited! Some of the reviews said the chest straps dug into their dog, so we will be padding those, and that it’s very cheaply made and won’t last long…but we’re aware of that. It’s hopefully just a temporary measure whilst we save and raise money for a custom chair, which we could get months down the line πŸ™‚

Her fund jar!!


Please check out her go fund me here!

We spoke with the head nurse of another surgery today, who agreed a wheelchair was a good way to go and that amputation should have been offered from the start. She was really lovely and reassuring, and we chatted to her for a good 20 minutes ^_^

Anywho. Pics of everyone πŸ™‚

Kasper played PROPERLY with Sasha for the first time yesterday. As in fluid movements, play bows and chase. It was lovely!



Puppy dog eyes!

Unfortunately in less than two minutes he’d gotten overly excited, which resulted in over-aggressive play and attempted humping. Immediate time out for Boo with a frozen apple puzzle feeder!

This apple was stuffed with peanut butter, wet dog food, and coconut oil πŸ™‚

Speaking of frozen treats, ice cube treats are SO EASY to do!! And our three go barmy for them, I actually don’t know who loves them more…and they’re a perfect crate treat for Toller too! They come highly recommended from our pups and are so easy to make.

There are three varieties here: coconut oil, salmon oil and peanut butter, & salmon oil and wet dog food.

Sasha walk




Tired pupper πŸ™‚ You can see a little of my dog gear wall behind her too haha!


Spudder playing with loo roll πŸ™‚

Happy-ish days!

Happy easter

and what not πŸ™‚

I don’t remember what I last posted, so I thought I’d share some beautiful photos from a walk with Kasper the other day.

This walk was actually a HUGE flop.

We had an hour-long hike planned, with Sasha being left at home, but from five minutes after we headed out I had awful ‘seizure rage’. With seizure rage I feel uncontrollably angry even though I have no reason to be, it’s just an emotion that proceeds certain types of seizures I have. But I will be extremely vicious and verbally abusive, and inside I’m hating myself for it and tearful because I don’t want to say these things and I don’t understand the anger.

So 40 minutes of the walk was wasted, 30 with me being angry, then 10 with me having seizures. Thankfully I recovered pretty fast so we were able to enjoy some time walking off lead and having fun πŸ™‚

I took my good camera (wrong walk to take that out on haha!) and managed to get some lovely photos.

This dude is SO MUCH FUN to train, and I love photo shoots with him because he really gets what I want him to do. Plus his impulse control is awesome so stays are no prob πŸ™‚

First thing he did was leap into the river haha, so then of course he had to do his special, incredibly vocal rolling πŸ˜„




Also adore this photo. And this dog ^_^


I was supposed to be getting him a beautiful custom lead for his birthday next month, but I’m kinda leaning towards the idea of getting him a collar in the pattern instead. His EzyDog collar has always been huge and only worn for aesthetics, and I do love buying collars for him πŸ™‚


Spring sure has sprung!

My Spudder puppy.


I wish I could feel more comfortable interacting with her. Atm I’m just so scared she will flail too much in excitement and re-injure her leg, or that I’ll drop her if holding her etc. The fact that her foot is so obviously wonky doesn’t help, as it’s all I see when I look at her 😦

And finally, me and my partner discovered a hobby we had never heard of and wanted to try: needle felting!!

Here are our creations so far. My partner made the brilliant yelling face, and I made the other two πŸ™‚

The process:

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Happy Easter / Sunday everyone πŸ™‚


Sasha’s collar is here!

I’ve never been so excited about a parcel haha!


And it’s AMAZING πŸ˜‰



It’s honestly a work of art, I am so in love with it! And the added bonus is that Sasha looks utterly adorable in it πŸ™‚


I think this is the most beautiful collar I have ever owned πŸ™‚

I’m honestly so happy with all her gear atm too, she looks bloody adorable!

Currently she is wearing Kasper’s Zero DC short harness (which is an amazing harness, and my favourite out of all the harnesses we have tried) and Kasper has the EzyDog. Our lead is also new, and is a cheap adjustable one from ebay, but it’s really soft in your hands and also happens to be the perfect length for me to wear around my waist!

Yesterday it was apparently National Siblings Day, so here’s a photo from our morning walk of my bigguns…a day late but so cute πŸ™‚

And we’re having a friend stay for a few nights, for the first time in years!

Of course I’ve had an awful day for seizures, but what can you do? Sasha’s done some awesome alerts, bless her. She met our friend well, was totally fine on a walk with him, and played excitedly with him in the house, but then after about half an hour seemed to be making herself anxious around him.

(walk pics!)

My partner and friend have gone out to buy some food now, so we’re going to give Sasha more space when he gets back and treat her as if she’d been fearful from the start. It’s funny though because I couldn’t get over how well she’d done, and it was like she suddenly thought “shit I’m supposed to be fearful!” hahaha πŸ˜„


Another day of sunshine

Enjoyed a walk with Kasper and Sasha yesterday, with not one but TWO seizure alerts from Sasha πŸ™‚

She really is doing phenomenally with alerts atm, and also alerted almost FIVE MINUTES before a seizure in the house yesterday…I felt really off at the time so assumed she was alerting to that or maybe a little seizure, then about 4.5 minutes after her initial alert I had a huge seizure out of nowhere!

Also Kasper, the world’s grumpiest dog, is super lenient with Sasha.

Idk where this came from, because he never used to be, and he has NEVER accepted some of the things he lets Sasha do from other dogs, not even Zoey, and Sasha is waaay past her ‘puppy license’ now at 8 months old and twice the size of Kasper…

But whatever the reason he lets her barge over to things he’s sniffing without telling her to bugger off, and he takes treats with zero anxiety even if his face is right next to hers. Even if she moves towards his treat. It’s actually pretty rare for him to snark at her, which for Kasper is a miracle!

And of course Sasha thinks he’s the best big bro ever πŸ™‚


No that’s fine Sasha, you stop to sniff this rock in a field with the horse that charges people and bit me a few years ago πŸ˜„

Thankfully it seems much better behaved since they built it a stable, and now spends most it’s time in there even as people walk through.


Kasper is an insane water dog (as long as it’s not in the paddling pool I got him for his 5th birthday, which he tolerates but doesn’t really like πŸ˜„ ) whereas Sasha completely missed the memo that Poodles are supposed to be water dogs, and thinks her brother’s insane when he dives in water!!

Cows with the sea behind them. Very different from manatees, which are true sea cows πŸ˜„


And to show quite how much bigger Sasha is than Kasper!


We are fostering Charley searching for a permanent home for him – preferably one where there are no other pets, a huge garden, and someone with experience of Collies(/crosses) and PR training.

Whilst he fit in very well until Toller’s accident, there is no way we can keep everyone happy whilst keeping Toller separate from everyone, Charley separate from Kasper, and without walking Charley. I just can’t do it. I’ve tried and tried, and I can’t.

I’m by no means giving up on my dream of a new family member, I just have new requirements.

The dog MUST be a small dog – not only does this decrease danger of Tolly being re-injured, but the vet has said she won’t be able to roughhouse with a bigger dog, and it would be nice for her to have a playmate…otherwise the only interaction she’s gonna get is sniffing Sasha’s face.

Something with enough energy for big hikes is needed, a bit of carrying is fine, but breeds such as Frenchies are obviously out!!Β And a breed without an overly sensitive temperament. Terriers are a good fit for us.

I’m also not looking at rescue dogs, or at least not rescue dogs older than 10-12 weeks. As rescue centres won’t adopt dogs to us (due to not working, having a decent garden, or 6ft fencing) we have to rely on rehoming from the owners, and THEY JUST LIE!! This results in us having a dog that is not at all acceptable for our family, and it isn’t fair on the dog, our dogs, or us.

I’m happy with anything Terriery. I’m not sure if a Border would be too sad, so I’m looking more at JRT, because I have a lot of experience with them and love their spunky energy and the fact they’re not sensitive at all. We also need a female puppy, because Kasper accepts any female puppy.

I’d love a puppy sometime this summer / autumn for socialisation reasons, but will wait for the right breeder.

If I get any hate for any of this, comments will deleted and blocked. If you don’t agree with breeder pups, unfollow me. My life, my decisions.

Alert on cam & adorable photos

Sasha has done an alert on a walk every day for the last three days, and yesterday she did at least two! (too foggy to remember any more)

Her alerting out the house is super rare, normally we only get one outdoor alert a week or two, so she’s rocking it!! I wondered if it’s because my seizures are so damn bad that they’re more obvious to her, but some of her alerts have been bloody perfectly timed – one, she alerted, I sat down, and within 30 seconds I was having a seizure.

Yesterday we managed to catch her doing an alert on cam! We were trying to take photos, and she alerted, so my partner kept snapping!!

Step 1: nose nudge

I did teach her to paw as a seizure alert (as I wanted it to be more obvious when I was walking) but because she’s such a big oaf, and she pawed when I was sitting too, it was too damn dangerous and I got tired of her claws raking my face πŸ˜„

Step 2: Serious face until I acknowledge the alert


Step 3: Praise and treats

Step 4: Get to somewhere safe and out the way, or if I’m stuck somewhere busy like town just drop to the floor and look weird!! Wait for seizure, then wait until better recovered after seizure.

Really cool to have photos of the process, I’m super proud of Sasha…what an awesome dog she is, and a great helper πŸ™‚

Next – Toller walked in the house for the first time yesterday!! It was only about 10 steps before we picked her up, but what a landmark in her recovery!

Can you stand the cuteness? πŸ™‚


Here she is wearing Pixie’s jacket…Pix was so damn small, and yet the jacket still swamps Toller πŸ˜„

Big dope!

It’s his birthday next month so I’ve been searching for the perfect edible gifts for him and a new police style lead too (multiple D clips). I think I’ve found ‘the one’, can’t wait to share photos once it arrives πŸ™‚

Oh god look at his expression ❀ ❀ ❀

I’ve been browsing amazing collars, harnesses and leads on etsy (because it’s one of the few tasks I can do without having to feel bad for not remembering it, eg. reading!!) and my partner felt so sorry for me with how crappy I’ve been doing he said I could buy a nice collar for Sasha πŸ™‚

So in my more lucid moments I browsed hundreds and hundreds of collars, and chose an amazing one for Sasha! We chose a 2 inch wide one, so you’ll even be able to see it with all her Poodle fluff!!

And yesterday we had 1kg of beef chews arrive! These were Β£8 off ebay, and if we’d bought them from an online pet shop, it would have been Β£6 for 300g!!!


The dogs absolutely love it. It doesn’t last the bigger three too long, but they go crazy for it, AND you can snap it into smaller pieces as training rewards too!

*splutter laughs* Sasha’s face!!

Bad days, hard work

The days have been a bit of a struggle.

Bad times with seizures, my body feeling exhausted but everytime I nap I wake up in intense pain, it’s all been very difficult. Factor in having to care for four energetic dogs where one’s on crate rest & miserable, another can’t go on walks as he’s a tit with cars, and our oldest doesn’t like the other boy-dog in the house…and I’m pooped from trying to keep everyone happy.

I had a super bad day for seizures yesterday. This week we’ve had to cancel and re-arrange a lot of plans that seizures have ruined, but at least we’ve gotten good at that πŸ˜›

We have done some huge hikes with Sasha and Kasper though. Often I do better out the house (I think it’s as the light is more ‘samey’ out in the world (forgive me, my brain is mush) whereas indoors the house dims it and then you get the sun shining at you through windows!).

So forgive me if I don’t talk much, I’m not very coherent and I’m not doing very well physically. I did want to post these beautiful photos though πŸ™‚

I’ll do today’s walks first! Sasha doing a sit stay (that red spot behind her is a cyclist that had just gone past – her impulse control is coming along wonderfully!)


And we had an amazing walk with Kasper. My favourite dope recalled perfectly from chasing birds, he responded immediately every time I called, and had lots of fun splashing in various puddles, ponds and mud holes πŸ™‚

Enjoy a photo from at the start of the walk, and one at the end – spot the difference?! πŸ˜‰


And in between pics πŸ™‚


And yesterday Sasha had her biggest walk yet.

We’d been planning on catching the bus to a nearby seasidey town, but I was too ill to be around people. Instead we just looped around the countryside near us, where I could have seizures and recover in privacy. Although I was swimmy-headed for much of the walk I had less than half a dozen seizures total, and Sasha successfully alerted off lead, so it was a victory for all πŸ™‚


I challenge anyone to tell me she’s not absolutely adorable πŸ™‚


My favourite family photo ❀ ❀

The tide washes up unimagenable amounts of litter on the shoreline, and sometimes we can use large pieces for confidence work.

Here I am testing Sashie’s confidence climbing on a plastic crate (A+ Sash, no fear!) and next we did body conditioning by getting her to fit all her limbs onto a narrow plank!



She only had to sit next to this, because I think jumping on it would kill her πŸ˜„

Can you believe the tide brought this here?!?!

Sasha dived in lots of bogs. She had some super mud boots on the go.

But seriously, look how proud she was πŸ˜„


The photo below looks like I’m mocking the sign, but was actually supposed to be supporting it.

This field has not one but THREE signs politely asking dog owners to refrain from letting their dogs off lead, and the times I’ve walked through this field (at least two dozen times) I’ve only ever seen off lead dogs here.

It doesn’t matter if your dog is impeccably well behaved off lead, it doesn’t matter if their recall is flawless. Nor does it matter if you are 100% certain there’s no livestock about. The land owner has asked you to keep your dog on a lead, and so you should do it out of respect.