4 days after amputation: first walk!

Oh guys.

Toller had her first walk today, and it was amazing.

Every action, you could just see the joy. She sniffed EVERYTHING!! She was so intrigued and happy to be out in the world again and walking, it was amazing. She was sniffing, springing, playing, pulling up flowers…it was so darn cute.

She was SO HAPPY. It was truly wonderful to see πŸ™‚

Can you imagine if the first vets had agreed to amputation immediately? She would have been walking less than a week after the accident, as oppose toΒ eleven weeks after 😦 Still, at least it got done, and she’s LOVING IT!!

We were saying today, we’ve not seen her trip once since tripawd life haha!

She got to see our friend today who was over visiting Mojo, and he was *amazed* at how skilled she is walking. Next time he’s over, in about a week, we’ll do a 5 minute walk with her πŸ™‚

Anyway, this is what you’ve all been waiting for – a video of her entire walk!

Picking ourselves back up!

Admittedly we’ve had an AWFUL week (two weeks?) so yes, I broke when we found out Toller’s leg wasn’t as healed as we had hoped for.

BUT, I’m picking myself back up, my partner has been wodnerfully supportive, we have a plan and I think we can make it work πŸ™‚

Things are improving. I’m tired and in physical pain, and mentally still a little fragile, but I haven’t cried today…which is a huge frickin’ achievement hahaha!!

So yes. We’re waiting on the basic Β£70 wheelchair to arrive (2-5th May) and I’m honestly so excited! Some of the reviews said the chest straps dug into their dog, so we will be padding those, and that it’s very cheaply made and won’t last long…but we’re aware of that. It’s hopefully just a temporary measure whilst we save and raise money for a custom chair, which we could get months down the line πŸ™‚

Her fund jar!!

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Please check out her go fund me here!

We spoke with the head nurse of another surgery today, who agreed a wheelchair was a good way to go and that amputation should have been offered from the start. She was really lovely and reassuring, and we chatted to her for a good 20 minutes ^_^

Anywho. Pics of everyone πŸ™‚

Kasper played PROPERLY with Sasha for the first time yesterday. As in fluid movements, play bows and chase. It was lovely!

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Puppy dog eyes!

Unfortunately in less than two minutes he’d gotten overly excited, which resulted in over-aggressive play and attempted humping. Immediate time out for Boo with a frozen apple puzzle feeder!

This apple was stuffed with peanut butter, wet dog food, and coconut oil πŸ™‚

Speaking of frozen treats, ice cube treats are SO EASY to do!! And our three go barmy for them, I actually don’t know who loves them more…and they’re a perfect crate treat for Toller too! They come highly recommended from our pups and are so easy to make.

There are three varieties here: coconut oil, salmon oil and peanut butter, & salmon oil and wet dog food.

Sasha walk

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Tired pupper πŸ™‚ You can see a little of my dog gear wall behind her too haha!

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Spudder playing with loo roll πŸ™‚

Happy-ish days!

Good training, good news!

 

Good news first!

Toller had a vet appt today with the good vet, just to check how her foot is recovering. The vet was thrilled with her progress and said Tolly is recovering faster than any of the vet staff anticipated πŸ˜€

Toller was walking around the exam room for about a minute so the vet could observe her limp (or lack of one!) and the vet was really impressed. She even said that within the next week we can start letting Toller walk a little in the house ^__^

We also got to ask about Toller’s wonky foot, which the vet said is not a concern. She said at worst it’s a little bit of ligament damage, which will just mean her foot is a little squiffy and the nails on that paw may need more care.

So yes, AWESOME NEWS!!

My little champ ❀

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And some boy training videos, mostly Kasper.

Here’s Charley’s. I started teaching him to tidy away his toys haha πŸ™‚

Kasper rocking leave it

Kasper playing dead πŸ˜„

Kasper doing the initial part of the trick “say your prayers” (second part would be lowering his head)

Leg weaves (which he LOVES!!)

And a final leave it

I had more to say, but my head is a ball of seizurey cotton wool and I won’t make sense. So I’ll leave it here πŸ™‚

An angry rant

Today had a really nice few hours where we sat in the garden and had such a nice time as a family, but there have been huge periods of time lost due to seizures and seizure rage.

I just woke up from a 2.5 hour nap, because apparently my body is useless atm and needs a 2.5 hour nap every day, and the seizure rage and seizures have returned.

I can’t fucking stand these seizures.

My worst auras result in extreme rage, where I want to harm those I love or at least lash out at them verbally, or where all of a sudden I just feel completely hopeless, depressed and done with everything. How can a seizure immediately switch from me doing fine, to wanting to scream at my partner or kill myself?!

These feelings seem organic to me, even if me and my partner both know they are entirely caused by incoming seizures, it doesn’t help at all because they FEEL real and are inside me.

Another thing I hate is that before, during, or even after some seizures, I feel intensely hungry. It doesn’t matter if I ate a big meal just half an hour ago, I feel STARVING!! This is extremely fucking depressing, because either I eat when I don’t really need to, and obviously this will affect my weight as it happens a few times a day, or I have to try and ignore a hunger so strong it reduces me to frustrated tears.

Again, I know it’s not a ‘real’ hunger, but it doesn’t help in the slightest.

My plan for this blog was to post some beautiful photos of Charley and Sasha in the garden, taken today. But I’m too wound up and frustrated for that, so I’ve moaned and whined instead.

I. hate. seizures -__-

If you made it through this, enjoy a video of Toller deciding she loves red pepper…yesterday she snubbed dog treats, kibble, hot dog and a knuckle bone, but absolutely loved red pepper πŸ™‚

Toller update – 2.5 weeks crate rest

I come bearing fantastic news…Spudder is doing GREAT πŸ˜€

She has done 2.5 weeks of crate rest (so this counts as week 3) and she has barely a limp!!!!

This is obviously more than we could EVER have hoped for, as the first two vets we saw said that even once fully recovered she would be lame, walking would hurt her etc.

The rewiring surgery that they pushed (hell, they were still pushing it as being crucial and trying to get us to put Tolly through it TWO DAYS AGO!) was only supposed to result in a little less lameness, and Tolly was still supposed to have a hugely significant limp.

Well guys, LOOK AT HER! πŸ™‚

The only time she walksΒ at all is to go to the toilet, as shown. Other than that she is crated (you may notice she is wearing her cone despite no splint, that is so she can’t turn around and move much in her crate!) or being held. And that’s it.

I’m so, SO,Β *so* pleased she is doing so well πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€

Please share Spud’s Go Fund Me!

If you can splatter this link anywhere and everywhere that would be really helpful:

https://www.gofundme.com/rescue-puppy-needs-leg-amputated

In a couple hours we have a vet appt to have Toller re-splinted, but we will not be discussing amputation then as we don’t know which vet it will be. The whole treatment from the vet has been just awful; we found out on the receipt they charged a Β£38 consultation fee for when we went to collect Tolly –Β the vet gave us no aftercare advice, didn’t tell us what to do next, and simply said “the other vet explained everything to you, didn’t she?”

We were totally unaware that counted as a consultation, and the fact they charged us Β£38 for it is beyond disgusting.Β 

My partner is going to discuss this with them later, and we will be asking to talk to our vet via phone to bring up the possibility of amputation.

We are also going to be calling other vets in our area, along with rescues in case they can help set up an emergency fund that more people will see, and we’re going to try find a teaching hospital as sometimes they apparently charge less for operations.

I’ve done a lot of research on amputation and have found an amazing resource of a ‘tripod’ (3 legged) pet forum.

There are several owners whose dogs suffered a similar injury and, like Tolly, their vets tried to repair the limb.

One person’s dog was fine for two years but then developed severe end-stage arthritis. This meant they needed an elbow replacement (she brought up amputation then and the vet refused), the elbow replacement led to a chronic infection, and then finally the leg was amputated. The dog is pain free now.

And another person’s dog had a similar break to Tolly which was allowed to heal, and again the dog needed amputation a few years later and had been living with pain for suspected all that time.

I’ve written out loads of info and questions for the vet (they are so gonna hate us…) asking all sorts. One thing we *need* to know is a) what is the prognosis with the surgery where they wire her bones, and b)Β what are the chances of repeat procedures.

The vets haven’t mentioned that to us AT ALL, we had no idea that there was even a possibility of a repeat procedure. Every person I have spoken to who has experience with this (including a vet nurse) has warned me that complications and repeat procedures run extremely high with an injury like this.Β The vets told us nothing.

I find this absolutely shameful.

The only thing they have said about this procedure, and that was done over the phone, was that “hopefully” it will help Tolly heal better than a splint would. Hopefully. And that she would still be lame afterwards, but ‘probably’ not as much as if we just used splints.

That is not good enough. For a surgery that would cost Β£1200-1600 and that is extremely invasive with a long recovery time, that is not good enough.

There are many reasons why amputation would be a better choice, but vets seem to be against this because it seems so drastic. My reasons are:

  • Amputation completely gets rid of the need for further repairing surgeries for the leg
  • Unlike either of the other two options, Tolly would be able to walk (without pain) and would be able to go on walks, interact with calm and similarly sized dogs, etc. She would get to be a dog much more than having a fourth lame, painful leg.
  • Although amputation is a huge procedure obviously, recovery tends to be faster and easier and the dog tends to bounce back and adjust very well

Please please continue to share Tolly’s fund and I will keep you as updated as possible.

The wait is killing me

We were so happy after dropping Toller off.

She was GREAT at the vets and was so happy to see the staff. The vet was amazing with her and it was just going really well…the vet suspected a tiny bone fracture in her foot, a broken toe or bad tissue damage, and said she didn’t even really need to do an x-ray, but we said she might as well to be sure what we were dealing with.

Leaving Tolly was fine as she was just giving the vet kisses and wagging her tail, and we would phone at lunch time to see how it went and go pick her up, wearing a cast or a splint.

Then they phoned us just before 12pm and Tolly has TWO broken bones in her foot!!!!

And her bones are quite far apart at the break so she might need surgery to put a pin in πŸ˜₯

Our vet has sent the x-rays off to a bone specialist so we’re waiting to hear back from them which “might be a few hours”, and I want nothing more than to go sit with Tolly and just make sure she’s being looked after and not on her own, but the vet said there’s no need. So we’re just waiting.

And I’m so scared and I just want my littlest one in my arms πŸ˜₯

Uuuuuuugh.

God bless that little puppy. I just want to be with her. Sitting at home and waiting and fretting and fretting and waiting isn’t doing any of us any good.