I might have Sasha as an at-home assistance and seizure alert dog, at least for now.
My bond / connection is so low with Sasha. She is just not a ‘me’ dog at all. It makes me so sad because we spend almost every minute of every day together, but I just don’t click with her.
Sasha is an extremely docile dog. She is chilled to the point where she’d rather sleep than train or play. She’s uber calm, very rarely gets excited about anything, and tolerates rather than enjoys training…that is not a dog for me XD
I like crazy dogs.
I like dogs that bounce of the walls, bond closely to their owner/s (which Sasha doesn’t), need long hikes daily, are super intense and thrive on training, and are hella energetic. I like my dogs wild haha.
Training with a dog who thinks it’s “eh, okay I guess…” isn’t particularly enjoyable, especially when you had hopes for that dog to be an assistance dog and so need to train a lot of the time.
We’re going to really amp up her being left. She can do 20 minutes now, but I’m kinda tired of her holding me back so I want to work it up to her being left for at least 90 minutes by next Monday. I so desperately want to get out in the world again, I want to take Tolly on big hikes, I want to walk around town and spend hours sat in a field and just not worry about Sasha getting overwhelmed.
Oh, last night Toller SUCKED in her crate too!
She was doing her howly-singing in the damn porch and woke me up! I’ve gone back to old CBD oil which apparently gives me the worst headaches ever, so could really have done with sleep last night. The problem is even if she only whines 15 minutes, I’m screwed because she wakes me up and I can’t get back to sleep!
She had SO MUCH stimulation yesterday too, she went on a massive hike all the way through town and along the canal, and was down almost the entire time. The walk was 1 hour and 40 minutes long, so how she had the energy to complain at night IDK.
AND to top that off, benefits stopped our payment recently without telling us for a completely stupid reason, and as a result we have no money. Zilch.
It’s a long story, but as short as possible – out the blue they wanted me to attend an assessment, which in 6 years of claiming this particular benefit they have never done before, and only wanted to do because they made a mistake on their end with a change of address form!! When my partner said I was too ill, they asked for a Dr’s note saying I couldn’t attend an assessment and couldn’t manage a home visit. The receptionist at the GP surgery said we’d need to write in with exactly what we wanted the GP to write, but then they forget about the letter and rushed it out several weeks later when we were constantly ringing to remind them. He ended up writing the wrong thing and said I needed a home visit but was too unwell for an assessment.
My partner phoned the benefits line and told them what had happened and that the letter was wrong; they said send it in anyway as it was the only evidence we had. Now they are saying that I have to have a home visit because the GP note note said I could handle that, and they then suspended our payment without telling us. Now they are making us beg for an appeal, which means it’s going to be at least a month until we get any money, AND they are insisting on a home visit.
In the meantime another benefit has stopped as it can’t pay us until the first one does. Oh good…
So we have absolutely no money. We bought a bag of kibble in whilst we still have enough money to do so, which means the pups are set for a good while. We had to get cheap crap, but I spent hours researching what the best ‘cheap’ food is. We’re most likely going to have to use a food bank within the next few weeks for us.
Next, today my partner has to go out for several hours (to sort benefit stuff, as they refused to make it easier on him) and couldn’t find anybody to watch me. We’re both hugely stressed about me having a seizure and either getting injured or not being present when the dogs do something they shouldn’t >__<
And finally, on a minor note, I’m also lost as to what to do with CBD oil. The 3% did help a little and we were planning to buy that company’s 6% (very expensive!), but if that gives me headaches it’s a waste of money. The 25% worked from the new company we just tried, but that costs £120 for a 10ml bottle, so no. I could try a totally new company and ask for a sample, but let’s be honest it probably wouldn’t work!
All in all we’re both so incredibly stressed about everything and life is horrible haha. But I have my partner, and that is the most important thing.
I should have just called this post ‘ALL THE RANTS’ 😉