2.5 weeks after surgery

Tolly now has a bare nub ๐Ÿ˜€

She’s even growing adorable ginger peach fuzz over her stump already hahaha!

Please ignore those sad puppy dog eyes. She *really* wanted to go play with her big sister and I was making her pose for nub photos XD โค

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Wrestling with Mojo this morning

Look at that little nub go!!! XD

I was kinda worried how I would feel, seeing it bare 24/7. I thought I’d be grossed out, or sad every time I saw it…I actually find that little stump adorable, because it’s a part of Tolly! And seeing it wobble about is so cute!! โค

You honestly wouldn’t believe how smoothe her recovery has been. She is incredibly agile already, and we can see her stamina improving.

She didn’t actually need me to hold the buffalo horn here, I was just doing it so that we had a better shot of her nub!

2 weeks after amputation!

Today marks two weeks since Spud’s amputation, so let’s review her achievements ๐Ÿ™‚

  • Come off pain meds
  • Stitches out
  • On lead walks (currently 5-10 minutes)
  • First off lead walk in 3 months (currently 5 minutes)
  • First playing with Mojo
  • First playing with Sasha – today!
  • Bombing about the house
  • First training

Tonight, before I even realised we’d hit the 2 week mark, I happened to take loads of Toller photos because we were having a really lovely time, and I wanted to remember it. So enjoy some very happy Pud pics!!

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First play with Sasha!!! ๐Ÿ˜€

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Her “oh shit I’ve overbalanced” face XD

Ah but she’s so *happy* now ^__^ โค

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The cutest thing ever, look at the love captured in this photo โค

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Nuddy stump photos! Our first time seeing her nekkid ๐Ÿ™‚

They left her shoulder blade in, so she’s more…stumpy…than a lot of tripawds XD

1.5 weeks after amputation: first off lead walk!

Toller had her first off lead walk inย 3 months today!! ๐Ÿ˜€

It was amazing!!

She had SO MUCH FUN ๐Ÿ™‚ โค

On top of her pure joy, her recall was perfect, she didn’t stray far, she checked in and sat voluntarily…it was all just amazing!

She did 2 minutes walking on lead, and 2 minutes off lead. We’re still building it up very gradually, but she’s doing great ๐Ÿ™‚

I can’t wait until she’s fully recovered so that we can use the Ruffwear Webmaster on her. It’s supposed to be the best harness for tripawds, and a harness would make things much easier as atm she’s so excited that she pulls on a collar and a few times her front leg has skittered out and she’s face planted!!!

Lead work can wait until she’s got a few more walks under her belt though, I can’t blame her AT ALL for being excited ๐Ÿ™‚

How gorgeous and amazing is this little one? โค

2 days after amputation

Toller is still doing great ๐Ÿ™‚

Her pain meds make her very sleepy, so we have to adjust how long she is out her crate. Usually it’s 20-40 minutes. Our vets seem to be really strict about crate rest after amputation (some places are much more lenient) so for now at least we’re following their advice.

This means Tolly’s still on crate rest at least until her check up on Monday. Eventually she’ll be spending time in the 42 inch crate we’ve set up as her play pen, and the next step is spending more time free in the house. At some point we’ll begin special exercises to strengthen her core muscles, and building her up to walks ๐Ÿ™‚

Spud’s gonna be meeting my parents tomorrow. That will be nice for her ๐Ÿ™‚

It’s Boo’s birthday in a few days, he’s going to be seven! Unfortunately his main birthday gift won’t arrive until a few days after (we forgot to order it with all the Tolly stuff, ooops!). He’s getting a food dehydrator so we can make all sorts of treats and chews for him, he’ll LOVE that!

We did order some new puzzle feeders which will arrive on his birthday though, so at least he has something.

Kasper’s had less walk as we prepped for Toller’s surgery. Once her amputation was done we got back into the swing of it, and he was SO HAPPY to have his walks!!

He might be seven, but he can still go as far as Sasha, and he SPRINTS everywhere vs her leisurely pace. He has crazy stamina and walking him is always such a joy.

Smiles all round ๐Ÿ™‚

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And I’m going to do a training post/update for Sasha at some point. For now here are some photos from a very wet walk today!

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And whilst we’re talking about wet dogs…check out Miss Sashie splashing through the sea on a hike the other day!!

Picking ourselves back up!

Admittedly we’ve had an AWFUL week (two weeks?) so yes, I broke when we found out Toller’s leg wasn’t as healed as we had hoped for.

BUT, I’m picking myself back up, my partner has been wodnerfully supportive, we have a plan and I think we can make it work ๐Ÿ™‚

Things are improving. I’m tired and in physical pain, and mentally still a little fragile, but I haven’t cried today…which is a huge frickin’ achievement hahaha!!

So yes. We’re waiting on the basic ยฃ70 wheelchair to arrive (2-5th May) and I’m honestly so excited! Some of the reviews said the chest straps dug into their dog, so we will be padding those, and that it’s very cheaply made and won’t last long…but we’re aware of that. It’s hopefully just a temporary measure whilst we save and raise money for a custom chair, which we could get months down the line ๐Ÿ™‚

Her fund jar!!

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Please check out her go fund me here!

We spoke with the head nurse of another surgery today, who agreed a wheelchair was a good way to go and that amputation should have been offered from the start. She was really lovely and reassuring, and we chatted to her for a good 20 minutes ^_^

Anywho. Pics of everyone ๐Ÿ™‚

Kasper played PROPERLY with Sasha for the first time yesterday. As in fluid movements, play bows and chase. It was lovely!

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Puppy dog eyes!

Unfortunately in less than two minutes he’d gotten overly excited, which resulted in over-aggressive play and attempted humping. Immediate time out for Boo with a frozen apple puzzle feeder!

This apple was stuffed with peanut butter, wet dog food, and coconut oil ๐Ÿ™‚

Speaking of frozen treats, ice cube treats are SO EASY to do!! And our three go barmy for them, I actually don’t know who loves them more…and they’re a perfect crate treat for Toller too! They come highly recommended from our pups and are so easy to make.

There are three varieties here: coconut oil, salmon oil and peanut butter, & salmon oil and wet dog food.

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Tired pupper ๐Ÿ™‚ You can see a little of my dog gear wall behind her too haha!

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Spudder playing with loo roll ๐Ÿ™‚

Happy-ish days!

Tolly’s getting a wheelchair

So I’ve been crying non-stop these past few days. I’m hugely pissed at the vets, my heart is broken for Toller, and I knew that after the costs of her treatment thus far, we couldn’t afford ยฃ1500-2500 to amputate her leg.

So it was time to think up an alternative to improve her life.

And we discovered doggy wheelchairs!

For now we have ordered an extremely basic, standard (eg. not custom fit) front-wheeled cart that cost ยฃ70, and looks like this:

We’ll be trying that out whilst we wait to sort something for a custom cart. It’s due to arrive early next month.

Custom wheelchairs are incredibly expensive. We’re looking at ยฃ300-400 once we factor in custom builds and postage, especially as the one I keep getting directed to is based in America! If anyone wants to share or donate to Toller’s Go Fund Me, please do ๐Ÿ™‚

Help get Tolly walking and wheeling

Why a wheelchair?

So basically where the vet has left us now, according to them, Tolly is fully healed. They don’t even want to see her again unless “we’re concerned”…uh yeah, after seeing her walk yesterday I’m fucking concerned!!!!!

What happened to her making a full recovery and the injury not even being visible?! What happened to her being able to go on walks like a normal dog?? Now you’re saying that’s not going to happen?!

At this point Spud has enduredย eight weeks of crate rest, and guys that is just bullshit ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

She’s a completely different dog to before the accident; she’s miserable, she gets enjoyment from so little, and she’s anxious. It’s BULLSHIT. I’m so annoyed because Iย wanted to amputate that leg, but the vets persuaded me not to, they said it’d be fine…and it’s not.

With a wheelchair, she will be able to BE A DOG. She can run and exploreย immediately, no rehab, no worries about making her leg worse…the misery of crate rest will be over, and it’ll be SUCH an improvement on the vets proposed life of carrying and such limited walking.

I know she could have been happy as a tripawd, but with a wheelchair she can be a dog RIGHT NOW. No more rest, no more procedures. So that’s the way we’re going.

I’m exhausted and so stressed by all this, but I feel like we might have found a way to make my baby girl happy. Fingers crossed…

A day of tears

Yesterday was…fun -_-

It was the hardest day of this year so far, easy. Shitty things have been happening anyway and my mh has taken a dive this past week, but more than that was seeing Tolly walk for the first time.

I hadn’t seen her walk since before the accident, and all I’d been told was she was doing ‘great’. I saw her walk inside yesterday and her foot just looks AWFUL.

It’s twisted facing completely the wrong direction, the leg’s at a weird angle…it’s just heartbreaking and I immediately burst into tears. I was crying pretty much non-stop for the rest of the day, I’m talking huge floods of tears and just feeling hopeless.

I literally can’t be around Toller when she’s walking, I get hugely upset and then she gets upset. I need a few days to recover justย being with her, because when I see her atm it makes me teary because I remember her foot and think of how she was before and I just cry and cry and cry.

The guilt is tearing me up and then I feel like shit because when I start getting sad she just looks so confused, poor little love.

I have a lovely little ‘feel like shit’ list atm.

  • Toller’s foot
  • Overwhelming guilt for my bf (this started due to the things I say when I’m seizurey, but spred to pretty much everything – it’s at the point now where when we’re cuddling and happy together, I get tearful, guilty and sad)
  • Feeling like / stressing that I don’t want to be with my bf and our relationship has run it’s course (due to overwhelming guilt and seizure rage)
  • Seizures and everything they bring; stress, tiredness, feeling physically illย etc
  • HUGE health fears that reduce me to tearsย on a daily basis
  • Depressive episode (thus making above points feel even worse) – thanks for choosing now to raise your ugly head, bipolar

This week has been rough in general, but yesterday took the cake.

-sigh- Oh well, here are some photos of little Puddy one enjoying seconds of her dinner yesterday.